“I need you.”
“You have me.”
“No. I don’t. This is no way to live. Waking up with a broken heart every morning. Waking up to see the other side of the bed as empty as my heart. Facing everyday alone without you is terrible.”
Sometimes I wonder different things.
I wonder what it’s like where you are, away from the drugs and alcohol and the shit people of the earth.
Now it’s somewhere in my room, to be found at a later date, and to be put back up when all this is healed.
I hope it’s better than here, wherever you are.
I want to lose myself in the forest.. so I can be completely and utterly alone. And then I will feel what it is like.
And I will decide if I enjoy it. Odds are, I won’t. In fact, the odds are that I’ll miss him too much to even be gone for an hour.
April 26, 2011
Maybe I’ll get a tattoo soon.
I want our life together to begin as soon as possible.
April might have become my favourite month. So many storms, so many tornadoes.
I still want to become lost..
May 4, 2011
I wish it would storm more. I want to hear the rain again.
I see no “May Flowers” so bring the rain back.
May 20, 2011
Speculation that the end of the world is tomorrow… If so, why the hell am I still in Texas, away from you?
June 25, 2011
In 3 days, Matty’s coming to see me. Then TN on he 30th. And my party on the 8th, and the I’m moving on the 9th.
So excited. I can’t wait.
February 25, 2012
Everything is so different.
“When she sleeps, she’s cradles herself, as if she’s holding herself together. As if any slight movement could destroy her.”
May 11, 2012
Today would have been 2 years and 5 months.
and I’m still alive.
I couldn’t be more appreciative.
June 23, 2012.
One day at a time, that’s how you handle it.
September 29, 2012
Who am I anymore? I’m not really sure.
But, I still fall into the same patterns.
home ask me archive themes Face.The Book of Allie. from within. Emily.Who I am.